People

People are so interesting. Everyday I am amazed by them. Today a friend of mine told me that I had a gift, the actual need to want to help people. I forget that sometimes, that it is a gift.

It is hard for some people to understand this about me and even for myself to understand sometimes, but I actually feel happiest when I am making someone else smile.

I realized that for a while, I had been looking for a man to make me smile. But I recently realized that the person that makes me smile most is me. I have to be my own best friend and then I can truly smile. I have so many things that I am passionate about and love---people, music, acting, teaching, dancing, working out, writing, songwriting, etc. I need to do those things to be happy, so until the person recognizes me as loving all those things and only wanting to add to that, I don’t need a random guy to hinder those loves.

Today I went to New York and I took the time to really observe people. It was amazing how so many people were so uninhibited. I saw street performers dancing on the subway, a guy playing guitar and ukulele and singing while people waited to board the train, a girl singing to her ipod while studying her reflection in the window on the subway, etc.

I was confused about the subway and instantly befriended two men who helped me to understand what to do to get to where I needed to go. One man was very friendly and had an accent. He was from Alabama and was visiting to see if he could get a job to pursue his dream of doing architecture.

I always have to be sneaky about observing people on the subway, but I find people so fascinating. I don’t know why. I hope I never lose my ability to connect with people and I hope God continues to send people into my life to teach me new lessons.