Settling in a new place

I have finally settled into Hoboken and I must say, I like it a lot. I have had a lot of "me" time lately. Time to reflect, see things, explore etc. I think it is so important that people have "me" time. I have realized that the things that make me most joyful are people, performing, being healthy and fit, writing, music, improvisation, making people smile and laugh, and children. I think sometimes we feel that we need to fit someone else's mold, but our mold may be totally fine.


Moving here, I wanted to do it all, act in movies, tv, commercials, sing on stage, go out to bars and restaurants, learn guitar and ukulele, write a book, make new friends, do improv...writing it all down even stresses me out. Wanting to do all of that was starting to really stress me out. I am a go getter and always have been, but I think I have finally narrowed some of my wants down.


I have learned from my belly that I cannot drink and eat out every night, not only does my body not like it, my mind doesn't either. I have learned that I can't really fit in writing music, seeing shows and working on my voice while going to acting auditions all day. I have realized music is what I love most more than acting, whether it be performing with my own band (http://soundcloud.com/zillawilla) or watching shows in New York. I love supporting other musicians as well. I have learned that I really love children and need to continue being around them. When I pass by little kids, I always have to say hi. I decided to end my voyage of searching for a waitress job, and will be nannying in the fall instead. I have realized that I love to write. I am working on some blogs with some writers, as well as working on my book. I still have such a love of comedy, I can thank Lucille Ball for that. Happy 100th Birthday to Lucy! I just got into an improv troupe in NYC (https://www.facebook.com/pages/Rufus-Khan/207408718128). I have realized that nature and water give me so much peace of mind. I like to walk down to the river in Hoboken a lot to reflect and clear my thoughts. I have realized that I don't need to be friends with the whole world and should cherish the friendships I come across that I know will last a lifetime. I have learned to continue to explore and enjoy the journey, not the results.

It definitely took me a while to center myself in a new place, but I am still me and finally understanding you can hold yourself true to that, no matter where you travel and people will actually appreciate you more for that.