This Moment

Today I felt overwhelmed. I guess you could say, I felt a little lost. I realized that I am always running from thing to thing, day to day. I love everything I do, but sometimes I feel like I need another me in order to do it all. As I came home today, tears welled up in my eyes. I felt as if there is so much that I want to do, but I do not know how to put it all together.

I feel that my purpose is really big. It may be bigger than what I dream of even. I believe that I am called to help people in a big way. I want to sing, to act, to do improv, to do personal training, to write, to work with kids, to song write, etc. but ultimately I want to spread joy. I know I will figure out a way to group my loves at some point and what I end up doing may surprise me, but sometimes I wish I could know now.

I felt all this and then as I was checking my e-mail, I came across a video my mother sent me. It made me take a deep breath and realize to have gratitude. Be grateful for all that I am already achieving and be patient. Be happy that I have found so many loves. Be courageous in continuing to explore the avenues I have before me and live each day fully and present and seeing the joy and spreading it in every avenue I am venturing toward. In time, I will discover the best path for me, but if I have to stretch every part of me today, it is better than being held tight away from everything I love.


When I watched the little girl in the video, she reminded me of what I love to do, explore, and maybe it is not so bad after all and I haven't finished my exploration. When I heard the old man speak, he reminded me to take a look around and that I need to have some moments to just feel, feel the rain, feel the sun, feel the love around me, feel my strengths and weaknesses, and most importantly feel gratitude for every person that has come into my life. To be in the moment. I encourage you to watch this video...

The video: http://tedxtalks.ted.com/video/TEDxSF-Louie-Schwartzberg-Grati